Like my Shadow in the Sun

My care is like my shadow in the sun—
Follows me flying, flies when I pursue it,
Stands, and lies by me, doth what I have done;
His too familiar care doth make me rue it.
No means I find to rid him from my breast,
Till by the end of things it be supprest.

This part of the poem I believe she is talking about her love. She will always have that love, and hates that she has it. She feels that she must surpress these feelings, to be the queen and rule her people. I can relate to this as well. To love somone so intenly, and want to be loved back. But that love isn't whats right, or whats best. Try to run and it follows you, try to chase, and the love is gone. She says no means to rid from my breast, she can't get rid of her feelings. Of course not, means of the heart don't just come and go on command, so she surpresses these feelings. Burrying them deep into her heart, only to feel the agonizing chase in only her heart.

Grievance-

I grieve and dare not show my discontent;
I love, and yet am forced to seem to hate;
I do, yet dare not say I ever meant;
I seem stark mute, but inwardly do prate.
I am, and not; I freeze and yet am burned,
Since from myself another self I turned.

This part of the poem is one of my favorites. By Queen Elizabeth the depth and emotion poured into poem will have effects lasting far beyond the ink of the page. I think that everyone can relate to this. Everyone in their lives has once come to a point where they feel the same. To show no emotion, to hide ones true feelings from the world. In her case, it was because of her position of power, however, with most people it is to protect themselves. Protecting from other peoples opinons, from their discresions, their judgments. The last line is very powerful. From myself another self I turned. I know that feeling, with time and lessons learned we loose the innocence of who we once were, and turn into someone who can survive. Who learns to cope, and learns how to be or what to say to get by. I love this poem, and can cherish and relate to almost every line.

UGH! PART 2

I am getting so sick of boys! High school boys, college boys, it doesn't make any difference! I've only had three relationships my entire high school career; the last one didn't end pretty, and wasn't even a good relationship. My newest one however, I was really excited about. I was finally dating again, and happy with who I was dating. That was until I found out that an ex girlfriend was in the picture. Really? Again, seriously? I find that I seem to be the girl that always gets cheated on, or screwed over in the relationship. So after that bit of drama, this particular guy had told me that he wanted to be with me instead. I should of known, I shouldn't of just believed it would be that easy. But of course I did, so we spent the next two days in new relationship bliss. Playing around, making out all the time, and just enjoying being with each other. Until one morning, when I get the random text that he just wants to be friends. Of course to save my pride, I said I agreed, and was thinking the same thing. What a jerk though, to lie to me, not even telling me the real reason, which was to get back with his ex girlfriend that he supposivly choose me over. Right. Boys are stupid, and immature, and I can't wait until I actually find one thats mature, and a nice guy. How hard can that be?!

Prom!

Finally! I'm actually excited about prom now. My guy troubles seemed to have gone from bad, to good, and then to worse. Dumped my old boyfriend, so I got a new one! Well this new one didn't want to go to prom, fine with me, as long as I could find someone else to go with. Which up until Saturday, wasn't happening. Finally out of desperation I asked a guy I work with, and surprise surprise; he said yes! So yay! Kira now has a prom date now! Too bad I still don't have a dress, haven't even begun to think about flowers and colors, blah. All that in time will come, but I'm just glad I have a date now!